Sunday, January 5, 2020

Wedding Night Blues


WEDDING NIGHT BLUES
By Sue-Ellen Sanders

It wasn’t supposed to happen that way.

But, on my wedding night, as the drenching rain soaked through my ecru lace wedding gown and my carefully coiffed hair wilted against the storm, I was running through the backyards of my neighbors, crying, calling, “Honey! Honey, come back.”

I could feel them behind their curtains, staring, wondering how what was supposed to be the best night of my life, had turned out so badly. I imagined how my carefully applied make-up was probably giving me raccoon eyes and wondered if the grass stains would come out of the bottom of my once-lovely gown.

“HONEY,” I was almost screaming now. “Honey, please come back! Please!” I could feel their pitying eyes, as my pleas became more desperate and the rain pounded down on my back.
HONEY!

It was just after midnight on our wedding day.
……
It would all work out; I was married, now. The minister had declared us husband and wife much earlier that evening, before 5 pm, outside the small Baptist church where my betrothed had once attended Sunday School classes.

The wedding vows had been fairly short, but the typical Florida summer rain had started its drizzle before we even left the church. “It’s good luck when it rains on your wedding day,” everyone was telling me, and each other, as we tried to dodge the rain, at least until we got to the hotel where the reception would begin and where the majority of the wedding photos would be taken.  I’m not sure if it’s an old wives’ tale or just because people feel sorry for the bride who has to deal with rain on her wedding day.

We made it through the vows and when my husband-to-be gazed at me, there were tears in his eyes. Tears of joy, I assumed. There was a brief moment of concern, when we were lighting the unity candle and I caught my veil on fire, but quick action by my betrothed smothered it out and I don’t think most of the guests even noticed.

The reception was a glorious gathering of our closest friends and relatives, with an open bar. We made the rounds of the tables, danced to deejay’s tunes that we had pre-selected together and then laughed and cried as we got ready to leave.

My bridesmaids had loaded my car with boxed gifts, cards and we planned to drop them by my house—now, our house—before we went to the hotel where we would be spending our wedding night. Our flight out to San Francisco wasn’t until afternoon the next day and a honeymoon in the wine country. I looked forward to sleeping in through the morning.

The house was only 5 minutes away from the lovely turn-of-the-century hotel where we’d hosted the reception, so we figured we’d leave the gifts there and take my dog out. That would hold the little Australian Shepherd until the next morning, when my friends were coming to take her to their house.
I unlocked the front door and held it open, as my husband carried in a balanced load of boxes, 
wrapped in glittery white and silver wraps. As I stood in the doorway, in a flash the honey-colored shepherd dashed past us, into the rain.

By the time we put the gifts on the dining room table and ran after her, the dog was gone, running free throughout the neighborhood. She was no where to be found. And that’s why my husband and I spent the first hour after our wedding reception, shortly after midnight,  tired, wet and more than slightly drunk, running around the neighborhood, calling desperately  for the dog named Honey.

We finally cornered her, filthy and wet, and smelling- well, like wet dog—and brought her back into the house, wiping her down with a towel as best we could. Then, we went on to our hotel and the next day, flew off to our honeymoon.

But from the time we began our married life in the little Lake Worth neighborhood where I owned my first house, until when we moved together, along with the dog, an hour north to Port St. Lucie, I imagined I could feel the pitying eyes of the neighbors, who probably still imagined that I was chasing my new husband that rainy wedding night.







Friday, February 7, 2014

First Prom Towne

A Thank you Poem to my Royal Palm Sisters
By Sue-Ellen Sanders
Ahh- She holds up the turquoise blue gown to her shoulder blades
Eyes reflecting delight before she even tries it on
Sequins twinkle in the light and she twirls around
Ready for prom.
Wow- Another girl clutches her regal purple silk as she leaves the room
Remembering how it swept the floor
Like a queen approaching her throne
A single sequin and embroidered flower at the nipped waist.
Another prom gown free to her good home.
Long velvet garnet gown
Fits another teen
Like a glove and she beams at her reflection in the mirror
As her proud mother beams.
Palms
It was our pleasure to watch
All these girls play dress up
In prom dresses they could take home
And be queens and princesses for the night.
100 girls all with different shapes and in different colors
Each left Prom Towne with a dress of their own


Sunday, September 22, 2013

The Solo Sidewalk Running Blues


For ten years we ran
From your house to mine
Dodging cars to street-cross
To the sidewalk beyond
Sometimes we ran
From my house to yours
Wishing for sidewalk
On our shady side of the street

Sometimes we’d walk
And sometimes we’d run
Day after day
Through drizzly rain, steamy sun
Years pass and schedules change
Those partner runs are sadly gone
Often when I run alone
I think how time flies on.

Then, on a solo run to start today
I saw:  finally the sidewalk is complete.
I can indeed run from my house to yours
All along the sidewalk on our side of the street
But now that that there’s sidewalk
From my house to yours
You don’t live there
Anymore.


Monday, December 31, 2012

Surviving Sandy Hook



I imagine the hidden children
Choking back their fear
 Nostrils burn with smoke
Mixed with the scent of wood
In the cupboard that saves their lives.
Catch a bubble, Teacher told them.

The children aren’t here, she lied.
Should they run?
The unseen children wonder.
But Teacher knows where they are
Playing hide-and-seek.
They listen to Teacher; she knows.

And when the other children
Who hid in the closet instead,
Bolt out and race for the door
They hear the shrieks
Drowned out by firecracker pops
And after, deadly silence.

A warning then, don’t come out.
So they wait
And perhaps they pray
Silent sobs, one sound might lead
The bad man to them
And the next shrieks may be their own.

They hear the sound of footsteps running away
Stomping, not their teacher’s feet
So they peek from their cupboard
And flee, quick and quiet as mice
Step around
The bloody bodies of their friends
and Teacher.

The classroom floor is
A movie their parents
Would never allow them to watch
At least they survive
To dream their worst nightmare
Over and over again.

Thursday, September 27, 2012

Motivation


Halfway to completion
A mile short of completely done
I never miss a deadline
But I slip right up to some.
Almost through but not quite there
I think of a friend’s wise words
When I’m feeling bad, I run faster, he says.
Race to the finish, then hurl.

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Refrigerator Blues




The first clue
Was the melting blue goo
Seeping from the thing
Formerly known as
My refrigerator.
Eww.

At closer glance
From a kneeling stance
The appliance
Floated in a sea
Of molten liquid
Oh.

Long weekend away
Late night return
Greeted by the smell
Of rotting fruits and meat
Nothing to eat
Nothing to save
No.

Less is more
They took our old appliance
When they brought the new one
Empty shelves and vegetable bins
With the steady hum of
A cooling frost
Time to buy new ice cream.
Now.

Monday, September 17, 2012

Next


Always believed
I could make my own good luck
That I am the master of my fate
But now
Some days are longer
Than others
And I’m not sure where to look
For my joy.