Sunday, January 5, 2020

Wedding Night Blues


WEDDING NIGHT BLUES
By Sue-Ellen Sanders

It wasn’t supposed to happen that way.

But, on my wedding night, as the drenching rain soaked through my ecru lace wedding gown and my carefully coiffed hair wilted against the storm, I was running through the backyards of my neighbors, crying, calling, “Honey! Honey, come back.”

I could feel them behind their curtains, staring, wondering how what was supposed to be the best night of my life, had turned out so badly. I imagined how my carefully applied make-up was probably giving me raccoon eyes and wondered if the grass stains would come out of the bottom of my once-lovely gown.

“HONEY,” I was almost screaming now. “Honey, please come back! Please!” I could feel their pitying eyes, as my pleas became more desperate and the rain pounded down on my back.
HONEY!

It was just after midnight on our wedding day.
……
It would all work out; I was married, now. The minister had declared us husband and wife much earlier that evening, before 5 pm, outside the small Baptist church where my betrothed had once attended Sunday School classes.

The wedding vows had been fairly short, but the typical Florida summer rain had started its drizzle before we even left the church. “It’s good luck when it rains on your wedding day,” everyone was telling me, and each other, as we tried to dodge the rain, at least until we got to the hotel where the reception would begin and where the majority of the wedding photos would be taken.  I’m not sure if it’s an old wives’ tale or just because people feel sorry for the bride who has to deal with rain on her wedding day.

We made it through the vows and when my husband-to-be gazed at me, there were tears in his eyes. Tears of joy, I assumed. There was a brief moment of concern, when we were lighting the unity candle and I caught my veil on fire, but quick action by my betrothed smothered it out and I don’t think most of the guests even noticed.

The reception was a glorious gathering of our closest friends and relatives, with an open bar. We made the rounds of the tables, danced to deejay’s tunes that we had pre-selected together and then laughed and cried as we got ready to leave.

My bridesmaids had loaded my car with boxed gifts, cards and we planned to drop them by my house—now, our house—before we went to the hotel where we would be spending our wedding night. Our flight out to San Francisco wasn’t until afternoon the next day and a honeymoon in the wine country. I looked forward to sleeping in through the morning.

The house was only 5 minutes away from the lovely turn-of-the-century hotel where we’d hosted the reception, so we figured we’d leave the gifts there and take my dog out. That would hold the little Australian Shepherd until the next morning, when my friends were coming to take her to their house.
I unlocked the front door and held it open, as my husband carried in a balanced load of boxes, 
wrapped in glittery white and silver wraps. As I stood in the doorway, in a flash the honey-colored shepherd dashed past us, into the rain.

By the time we put the gifts on the dining room table and ran after her, the dog was gone, running free throughout the neighborhood. She was no where to be found. And that’s why my husband and I spent the first hour after our wedding reception, shortly after midnight,  tired, wet and more than slightly drunk, running around the neighborhood, calling desperately  for the dog named Honey.

We finally cornered her, filthy and wet, and smelling- well, like wet dog—and brought her back into the house, wiping her down with a towel as best we could. Then, we went on to our hotel and the next day, flew off to our honeymoon.

But from the time we began our married life in the little Lake Worth neighborhood where I owned my first house, until when we moved together, along with the dog, an hour north to Port St. Lucie, I imagined I could feel the pitying eyes of the neighbors, who probably still imagined that I was chasing my new husband that rainy wedding night.







Friday, February 7, 2014

First Prom Towne

A Thank you Poem to my Royal Palm Sisters
By Sue-Ellen Sanders
Ahh- She holds up the turquoise blue gown to her shoulder blades
Eyes reflecting delight before she even tries it on
Sequins twinkle in the light and she twirls around
Ready for prom.
Wow- Another girl clutches her regal purple silk as she leaves the room
Remembering how it swept the floor
Like a queen approaching her throne
A single sequin and embroidered flower at the nipped waist.
Another prom gown free to her good home.
Long velvet garnet gown
Fits another teen
Like a glove and she beams at her reflection in the mirror
As her proud mother beams.
Palms
It was our pleasure to watch
All these girls play dress up
In prom dresses they could take home
And be queens and princesses for the night.
100 girls all with different shapes and in different colors
Each left Prom Towne with a dress of their own


Sunday, September 22, 2013

The Solo Sidewalk Running Blues


For ten years we ran
From your house to mine
Dodging cars to street-cross
To the sidewalk beyond
Sometimes we ran
From my house to yours
Wishing for sidewalk
On our shady side of the street

Sometimes we’d walk
And sometimes we’d run
Day after day
Through drizzly rain, steamy sun
Years pass and schedules change
Those partner runs are sadly gone
Often when I run alone
I think how time flies on.

Then, on a solo run to start today
I saw:  finally the sidewalk is complete.
I can indeed run from my house to yours
All along the sidewalk on our side of the street
But now that that there’s sidewalk
From my house to yours
You don’t live there
Anymore.


Monday, December 31, 2012

Surviving Sandy Hook



I imagine the hidden children
Choking back their fear
 Nostrils burn with smoke
Mixed with the scent of wood
In the cupboard that saves their lives.
Catch a bubble, Teacher told them.

The children aren’t here, she lied.
Should they run?
The unseen children wonder.
But Teacher knows where they are
Playing hide-and-seek.
They listen to Teacher; she knows.

And when the other children
Who hid in the closet instead,
Bolt out and race for the door
They hear the shrieks
Drowned out by firecracker pops
And after, deadly silence.

A warning then, don’t come out.
So they wait
And perhaps they pray
Silent sobs, one sound might lead
The bad man to them
And the next shrieks may be their own.

They hear the sound of footsteps running away
Stomping, not their teacher’s feet
So they peek from their cupboard
And flee, quick and quiet as mice
Step around
The bloody bodies of their friends
and Teacher.

The classroom floor is
A movie their parents
Would never allow them to watch
At least they survive
To dream their worst nightmare
Over and over again.

Thursday, September 27, 2012

Motivation


Halfway to completion
A mile short of completely done
I never miss a deadline
But I slip right up to some.
Almost through but not quite there
I think of a friend’s wise words
When I’m feeling bad, I run faster, he says.
Race to the finish, then hurl.

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Refrigerator Blues




The first clue
Was the melting blue goo
Seeping from the thing
Formerly known as
My refrigerator.
Eww.

At closer glance
From a kneeling stance
The appliance
Floated in a sea
Of molten liquid
Oh.

Long weekend away
Late night return
Greeted by the smell
Of rotting fruits and meat
Nothing to eat
Nothing to save
No.

Less is more
They took our old appliance
When they brought the new one
Empty shelves and vegetable bins
With the steady hum of
A cooling frost
Time to buy new ice cream.
Now.

Monday, September 17, 2012

Next


Always believed
I could make my own good luck
That I am the master of my fate
But now
Some days are longer
Than others
And I’m not sure where to look
For my joy.

Thursday, September 13, 2012

Scotty and the Bear Hug


The hug heard round the world, it was
But Scotty Van D didn’t know
When the leader of the free world
Stopped by his pizza joint
Where his uplifting message would go.

The hug wasn’t planned
 Wasn’t cleared by the prez
And even Secret Service was surprised
They saw teddy bear man 
Caught up in the moment
And stood down
While they watched their boss rise.

The hug brought a smile
To the people who saw
And the photo and the man were a hit
When Scotty Van D made the rounds
Of the media circus
We wondered if his head would still fit.

Coming back to Fort Pierce
Through the pizza joint’s door
Scotty brought his fame and his joy
But he shared all his bear hugs
Like he’d always done before
With every friend
Every girl, every boy.

Fame wasn’t all roses
With Election Day approaching
The far right feared
A positive press.
Still our Scotty took the high road
(I’d like to think it’s my road)
And delivered pizza pie to the rest.

Thursday, September 6, 2012

Dog Walk


The dogs' morning walk.
May be their favorite thing.
They trot along beside me,
Hunting lizards,birds and bunnies.
Today, they saw something new
A gray tiger cat just a few doors down
Sunning himself in the drive
What!  What!  I could see the wheels
Turning inside their poodle brains.

It was not our gray tiger cat, of course
Clyde passed away this summer
He was almost 17
Our first pet as a family
Pre-dog.
Still Clyde had been king of the back porch
He wandered the neighborhood proud
Everyone stopped to greet him
He loved poodles and people alike.

The dogs looked for Clyde on the porch for days
After he was no longer there.
The teens understood the cat had died
To the dogs, he had just disappeared.
As we approached the other gray cat
The poodles wagged their stubby tails
Cookie did her happy dance
Mack pulled ahead to greet the cat.

A friend of Clyde’s, perhaps they thought?
The new king of the porch? But no.
When the cat turned and ran away
Instead of running to greet them
They knew.
I had not hidden Clyde away
This was no switcheroo
We were a family
Without a cat
And now the dogs knew it, too.

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

Sunday, September 2, 2012

Marathon Fibs



Pounding your six-pack abs
You felt the need to lie
To make your run faster, greater
Oh, VP nominee, why?

I suspect a character flaw
That makes you insecure
You couldn’t just say you’re a runner
You had to embellish more.

For those of us lifelong runners
Who have run for miles and years
Your little white lie was serious
Not the accident it first appeared.

Who hasn’t rounded their finish time
To the next greater minute or mile?
But to take an hour off your finish time
What does that imply?

It tells me that you’re a fibber
Who thinks he’ll never get caught
I blame it on your mother
And worry those lessons untaught.

Saturday, September 1, 2012

Mistakes


No one is perfect
We all make mistakes
Some are bigger than others
Like the college football player
Who scooped up the ball
And ran the wrong way
Not just a little, but a lot
Fifty-eight yards is a long way
To run the wrong way.
And I thought
Here’s the first college football
Game of the season and look
He’s already made his mark
On national TV
Sorry.  Not sorry.
So don’t whine to me
About sending a stupid text
Or two or twenty.
Or forgetting to return
A library book for six months.
Yesterday’s mistakes
Are tomorrow’s lessons
If you play attention to them.
And besides,
Did you run 58 yards the wrong way
On national television? 

Thursday, August 30, 2012

Song of Cassie


She isn’t my daughter
At least of my blood
But I could not love her any more
If she was.
She comes as a pair
And I love her twin, too
He’s the voice of conscience
In her carefree world.
Ahh, but Cassie
Is so full of sparkle and fizz
That her cup runneth over
You can’t rein her in…
For all of her life
She will always be
The girl everyone
Wants to see.

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

The Bubble



Near to nine months large, baby boy in my belly
I cried to my doctor, take him out
Save him now.
A friend had discovered, that her baby was dead
Unborn boy strangled in her womb
By her own deadly cord. How?

Oh, sadness  Oh, fear!
Doctor patted my hand
Said, he’ll never be safer than he is in your womb.
Now, I understand.

I’ve thought back on those words as my two babies grew
The first concussion
The first broken bone
The first time my daughter was carried off the field.
As they grew into teens 
And drove off on their own
I cried about rain, and the highway too slick
I prayed for a bubble to keep them safe.

The best friend’s betrayal, the breakups, the heartache
The knowledge that although they tried
That sometimes they won't win the game or the part
And my own heart broke
When they cried.

There is no charm or guarantee of safe haven
I raised them to go off on their own.
If there was a bubble to keep harm at bay
Would I save them from themselves?
Or let them find their own way?

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Longevity


She
At 103
Is feisty and forgetful
Sweet and in good health
Not ready to go
Gently into that good night.
And I
Find myself wondering
About fate.

Why
A boy of 16
A child of 9
A young mother of 38
Pass from our lives
But she
She lives forever.

If I asked
She might loan those
Extra years.
Average them out
Twenty for you
So you could go to college
Get married and have babies, too.
Ten for you
So you could grow up
And play soccer.

Rocking in her chair
She wouldn’t miss them
Sometimes she knows
What day it is
Sometimes not.
I am certain
She would be
Happy to share.



Sunday, August 26, 2012

College Girl


Chloe doesn’t live here
Anymore.
And when she comes to visit,
It will be strange.
The dogs stopped sniffing
Outside her bedroom door
I keep it closed and clean
No towels on the floor

At first I missed her
Morning smile
The sleepy hair still wet from
Last night’s shower.
Holding a small dog
To her shoulder
She looked a child
No older.

But then I saw the smile
on her face again
A photo sent by text
But still.
A picture tells a thousand words, they say
Content. Comfortable. In college.
Her new home.

Saturday, August 25, 2012

Hurricanes Nights


Masking tape across the windows
And lining the jalousie doors
Towels rolled up in a tight roll
And slipped along terrazzo floors

Sitting together by candlelight
Dealing a Crazy Eights game
Or holding a flashlight on Scrabble letters
So they don’t burn up with the flame.

Winds whistling through the trees
Crooning a sleepy time tune
No daytime hurricanes in my recall
Squalls hiding a Miami moon.





Thursday, August 23, 2012

A Wifely Haiku



What’s for dinner, dear?
Every night and day, there’s food.
My job?  I think not.

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Another Mother's Sorrow


Someone else’s sorrow
Weighs heavy on my heart
Another mother’s tragedy
Is my cautionary tale

We are all mothers together
Who cry for another mom’s child
& pray for those lost children
Whose families still wait to exhale

God bless the mothers whose children
Still have another chance
A close call averted
A lesson learned in time

But a breath and then another
For the grieving mother
A grief we can’t imagine
Until we step across that line

Then missing socks and slamming doors
Will fade to what took place before
So I refuse to let them play
A starring role in my today.

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Ode to a Grocery Store


To me, they sell memories.
Of a first high school job
And college job, too.
Responsibility and first paychecks
And bosses who played second dad.

Of the car that burned up
In the parking lot
For real.
“Would the customer with a gray Ford Mustang
Please return to the customer service counter--
Your car is on fire.”

Of those silly shopping carts
Shaped like cars
That the children loved
But were so hard to steer
That we took the turns
At wide angles

Of the years I made deals
With two guerrillas
Jonesing for candy at checkout
Just five more minutes
And we’re through
One more aisle to go

Of today’s half empty cart
With no Gatorade
or pasta needed
In record time
And for half the bill
Maybe the cart’s half full?